I’m heading out this afternoon for infusion #2 of 12. I feel 100% normal today. I’m a little bummed out that after recovering so well at this point, I have to do it again, but I have a much better perspective on things with the experience of the first treatment under my belt. Probably the most encouraging thing is that the lump looks and feels significantly smaller already! I’m wondering if my mind is playing tricks on me. Even if it is, it gives me optimism that this treatment is working and makes it easier to go in for another round, so I’m fine with it.
I know that exercise helps me physically, but it helps me even more mentally. So, this morning, I went to an OrangeTheory class and had an awesome workout. I felt 100% going into the class and came out of there feeling even better. The team there is amazing. I let them know that I have to be very careful about germs, and they now automatically and discretely block off two lanes of equipment at the end of the studio for me so I have a buffer from everyone else in the class and I don’t share equipment with anyone during the class. I still wipe everything down repeatedly with obsession, but this buffer makes me feel so much better about continuing to go to the class.
As I think about what’s different this time going in for treatment, I’m feeling much less anxious about what’s ahead. Having the first treatment under my belt, I know what to expect today and in the days to come. Knowing that the hospital experience is remarkably positive makes me happy about going there. I look forward to seeing the my amazing care team who always genuinely want to help make me feel better. I’m less anxious about the side effects over the following days as well. It’s nice to know what to expect, even though it won’t feel great, I know I can handle it, and I have learned a few things I will do differently this time around.
That’s it for now. I’ll post a short update when #2 is done!